I planned my death carefully; unlike my life, which meandered along from one thing to another, despite my feeble attempts to control it ... At first I thought Id managed it. From fat girl to thin, from red hair to mud brown, from London to Toronto, from Polish count to radical husband - Joan Foster is utterly confused by her life of multiple identities. She decides to es I planned my death carefully; unlike my life, which meandered along from one thing to another, despite my feeble attempts to control it ... At first I thought Id managed it. From fat girl to thin, from red hair to mud brown, from London to Toronto, from Polish count to radical husband - Joan Foster is utterly confused by her life of multiple identities. She decides to escape to an Italian hill town to take stock of her life. But first, she must organise her death ...